In my last blog, I was excited for my vacation and the upcoming Strong(wo)man Expo. My vacation came and went, and even though I planned to swing kettlebells and kayak and get some hiking in, my body decided differently and I managed to get a severe head cold for most of my vacation!
The week heading up to the vacation, I had stopped by The Kettlebell Fitness Center for Strong(wo)man Training for the Expo that was coming up November 1. Not expecting much out of myself as I had not done any deadlifting, tire-flipping or Atlas stone lifting for a couple of years, I was amazed that I broke a PB by deadlifting 215lb!! So exciting! I had not gone past 205lb before. My farmer carries were also heavier: I felt stronger and faster. I was so up for it and excited to be a part of it with all you lovely fellow Kettlebell Center-ites!
So here’s the thing. The Strong(wo)man Challenge has come and gone, and I learned some good things about myself and some stuff that I thought I was over. What a great day it was, full of laughs and encouragement and amazement at each others strength, and pride in our own.
The good stuff: I’m stronger than I think I am. I can do stuff that I couldn’t do last year. The people at TKFC are awesome and great encouragers and we all came together to be supporters and cheerleaders in whatever form we took part. I came away on a high, having achieved some great times, weights and challenges. I felt so good about myself and what I had done. I was proud, my husband was proud and my friends were pretty amazed.
Then it happened. All that good feeling about myself packed its bags and scarpered off for lands unknown. Why? Photographs. I looked at images of myself doing these feats of strength and all I could see was my stomach, my double chin, the faces I was making. It was as if everything I had achieved on that Sunday was nothing compared to how I looked. I may have felt strong, but as I looked at the photos, I felt I looked fat, ugly, ridiculous and completely unphotogenic. I picked out a photo that didn’t look so bad and posted it on Facebook with the disclaimer: “Love the look on my face!!” I posted a video of myself doing the sandbag/tire/farmer carry medley with the disclaimer: “My pants keep falling down!” to make fun of myself so that I could laugh first before anyone else might. For a few days afterward, it’s what I thought about as I lay in bed at night, a little depressed at those images.
Was I the only person thinking the same thing? As it turned out, I wasn’t. And the people who were telling me the same thing were the ones who I thought looked amazing and strong in their photos!
Are we all like this?? I don’t know that answer, so I’m asking you. I thought that I had this beat. I thought that getting stronger and healthier and drumming into my head “Be kind to yourself” would be enough, but there it was, just waiting to ambush me when I was feeling really good about myself. Whether you believe in God or not, I am reminded of the verse in Psalm 139 where it says I am “Fearfully and wonderfully made.” But I forget that so easily as I forget to be kind to myself. How about you?
Enough of the navel gazing and let’s get onto some yummy food! Oh my word, I made the best Bacon Wrapped Smoky Chicken Thighs the other night with some cauliflower mash, both recipes from one of my favourite cookbooks “Practical Paleo”. Both recipes are easy-peasy to make if you just take some time to blend some spices together first. The chicken was wrapped in bacon, after being rubbed with a smoky blend of chipotle pepper, smoked paprika and cinnamon. The cauliflower was mashed with ghee and a salt/rubbed sage blend. My husband LOVED both dishes. A crisp green salad with jewels (hark at me!) of pomegranate seeds accompanied this very easy dish and looked and tasted amazing. And yet, so easy and quick to make. You need to make this.
Well, my friends, it’s coming up to Thanksgiving. So many things to be thankful for, but coming way up on my list is The Kettlebell Fitness Center and all the people that make up its family. What a great group of people you all are to hang out with and work out with. We’re all so different, but have this place in common. Love you guys – and Happy, Healthy Thanksgiving!!
(photos of TKFC, Got Strength, Prowler Pull and Tire Flip courtesy of Katie Hunter Photography)